This is what my Pastor says to do when “you’re not feeling it”. I’m kinda not feeling it today and I have a sinus headache and our financial situation is depressing and my friend’s mother is ill. This is life and even though I know that God is good, I am a humanoid with ever-changing emotions. One minute good, the next blah….
But, I will attempt to Faith It! I have to because there are good things happening. My son turned 18 yesterday! I didn’t cry yesterday, but I did the day before his birthday as I wrote out his birthday letter. I bawled my eyes out. I’m so proud to be his momma, but if I could just start all over again, I’d just hold him a little longer and play legos a bit longer than I did….etc., etc.
Parenting is hard, I know, but what I’m experiencing is a mixture of good and bad. I’m excited about the growth of my children, but I mourn the loss of their childhood. I will empty my nest, but slowly, I guess.
So, I faith it and enjoy them while they’re still here in the same house, at least for a little while longer.