Butterflies, Jitters and Excitement

Honestly, I’m adverse to attention, so what do I do? I decide to take on the goal of writing a novel. Perhaps I won’t leap from tall buildings or ever understand Calculus, but how to write a book?  I now can say I have some clue in that area.  It is a bit weird.  Me a bookwriter.  Note*  I have yet to say, I wrote a novel. It’s too early.  Perhaps what we  (my friend Elaine and I) wrote was more of a novelette.  But you have to start somewhere!  Below is a fake cover of our book.  I don’t take credit for the picture and I haven’t even checked with my partner about this.  But, I think it’s a cool shot nonetheless.  If you read the book, a sand dollar or two could actually be listed as minor characters!  Anyway, that’s it for now, stay tuned as I participate in “Pitching” on Saturday at the Writer’s Conference in Seattle.  Wish me (us) luck!!


The “sunbrella” protects us from the elements while also giving a pleasant color to the eyes, blending in with nature, adding to the peaceful ambiance.  There, I just sold these umbrellas.  Maybe, anyway, as the days pass quickly, my excitement as well as anxiety grows for the writer’s conference.  I’m thankful that I can go and represent me and my friend and our story.  This has been a 2 year long project that will meet it’s destiny in under 4 days!  But, I’m trying to be realistic as well and understand that this is a first endeavor.  We’ve done our best and are in need of professional intervention.  That is our need and we hope to achieve that goal by my attending this conference. 

Phillip and I have made a decision about moving.  We won’t be moving until next year.  We’ve decided to focus our attention on moving our girls into their college dorms successfully, planning for their tuition and making their transition smooth.  We also decided that both Phillip and I have goals as well:  He just started a job that is busy and exhausting.  We’re happy for him to keep focused on a good start with Amazon.  And as I referred to earlier, I’m focusing on writing.  There are plenty of goals I have around this condo and with our stuff, but for the most part, I will focus on writing the story and completing it.
There, our goals are documented and life moves forward.  Though my feelings are mixed about this decision, I choose to stand confidently waiting and not being idle. 

Summer Walks

Call me crazy, but walks are very important for me as they are for my dog.  I walk along and think and at times talk to my dog, or worse, myself.  (out loud)  It’s fine if someone hears me, but better if not.  I just have a lot on my mind about the pangs of the world.  I’m not sure if I’m worried.  If I am, that’s just plain wrong and dumb.  I know God “has got this”, as my sisters say, so I shouldn’t worry, but I do think about the state of it and what the world is coming to and also that nothing is new under the sun.  God is not shocked at what He sees.  I’m sure He’s grieved, but shocked?  Nope.  But, as for me, I get shocked quite easily.  In the news a family (minus one) was brutally murdered and I can’t imagine their last moments of life.  My brain plays it again and again in trying to understand it, but I hit the pause button because I can’t go there for too long.  I should just hit the stop button, but it’s hard to just label it as murder.  Murder exist!  There I said it.  I mean what do I think that bad isn’t out there?  It’s out there and a threat, but so is God.  I need to trust in God despite the craziness of the world.  Sin does exist, but Jesus won that war.  It is finished.  The time will come because He overcame death, death on a cross.  You have a bible, just read it.  Anyway, I’m mostly preaching to myself because it bugs me that I can’t deal with it.  I can’t even deal with war because to me that is death as well.  Sure, I don’t believe that all the killing going on is murder, but all the killing going on is death.  
Well, enough on that I suppose, it’s Friday after all.  I enjoy Friday!  Thank God it’s Friday!  I say that like I’m working and I’m off this summer, so Thank God it’s whatever day I wake up!!!  And when I go back to work, I need to say, Thank God it’s whatever day I wake up!
Thank you God that you are God.


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